Post by grimcoyote on Nov 16, 2015 21:29:36 GMT -6
Hey guys...I know you are scratching your heads thinking wtf, so I thought I would drop a line. Like your wives or ex wives, I am complex...lol. First, I am not long on goodbyes, and don't believe in dragging them out or creating drama unnecessarily...that is why I left literally overnight. Also, I had been disgruntled since the grguru situation, feeling as though I was forced to make a big stink about that psychotic asshole to get him out of the alliance, because I was being ignored by many caps because many thought I was being jealous of another female invading my space. Please...I deserved better than that, but I had to get sparky and jp finally on board after 2 weeks of being disrespected by guru and trying to convince the rest of you...like I was lying about it or something. That is when I found out who my true friends were. TY Todd, Mexi, and JP for always treating me as an equal...you have no idea what that means to me. Rocket...you recruited me, mentored me, and introduced me to this fantastic group of men...I will never forget that. Wayne...your night on chat with me and Jim Beam was priceless to me...you are a great, honorable person whom I admire more than you know, and I was never afraid of you for a moment Burt...trust me when I say I know who to be afraid of...my gut instinct is finely tuned...lol... Ryan, wish you and I had been on at the same time more...I so respect our conversation where we were both mislead by circumstances, and had a couple heated chat exchanges wherein I called you a liar...but we overcame our confusion quickly and discovered our mutual confusion, and within moments understood why rocket and kamal left battlehardened to form the dirty foxes, and the opportunity that stood before all of us. Look at where you are now...are you happy? Tony...I actually recruited you...but you deny that...you have been a bit nasty to me on numerous occassions of late...citing having a hard day...whatever. Tony, I've learned a lot from both you and kamal, and I highly value your perspective on the game...you have definitely perfected the no money player scheme along with mexi and others in the ally....very fucking cool man!!! No hard feelings...it is what it is.
I am following Kamal to Da Brigade, as Rocket predicted. I might wash out, but it doesnt matter. I am all about experiencing, and I have to try to compete at that level. It is simply part of who I am. Feel sorry for my poor hubby, who has to live with my fearless character, and sometimes help me pick up my broken bones and help me heal then get back on the horse...lol. Always better to have loved and lost, than never loved at all...
Sorry I left so abruptly and weirdly...it is never easy to leave voluntarily. I have been super busy with house guests for the past two months, and working in my rock shop...I literally have a ton of high grade patterned agate along with 200# of all colors of jade and turquoise/crysacola, so I have a lot of work in front of me. Our summer surveys and expeditions were very profitable from a raw rock standpoint. Time to turn it into money. Since I am going to have to fight the insurance company and doctors for my heart surgery, it will continue to take away time from my game. A new larger alliance more focused on performance numbers is where I want/need to be, as part of my research for the viability of a future potential startup gaming company for my youngest son. You must understand that I am acutely aware of how short my time on Earth may be, but my focus is on the success of my children, not on mine. I have already accomplished more than I ever dreamed as a kid...and I am doing well and enjoying life...but I have a lazer focus on the end game for the people I love deeply, because that is my opus, my gift to the world. I have complex ptsd, and significant genetic issues in my blood which offer upsides and downsides...I heal wounds and brokens bones at record speeds for humans, I detox my body faster, and I look ten years younger than other peeps my age. However, my blood clots at a very fast rate...so traumatic injuries are life threatening. I've been living with the effects of the blood clotting problem all my life, in 1996 I had a massive clot develop in my leg over 6 weeks as a result of twisting my ankle while stepping off a curb on campus. My doctor was apparently an idiot, but that is a different long story. The clot ran in the deep vein of my left leg from the femoral artery mid thigh to my foot...I couldnt walk on it at all for 6 months (the shooting pain was electric). You have no idea the trouble I've seen.
Bottom line, long story short, my goals have remained the same, but the alliance changed in a way that no longer fit, and/or I grew into a different player, and needed to move on to grow and learn to meet my personal goals. Perhaps in the end, you will notice how kamal AND I are alike. I learned the most from Kamal, because we think alike in many ways, and he was not afraid to tell me what I was doing wrong and give me clear instruction on what to do different. Kudos kamal!
It has been my honor to serve with you gentlemen. Thank you for your support, many kindessnesses, and understanding. I wish you all the best!!! ?
I am following Kamal to Da Brigade, as Rocket predicted. I might wash out, but it doesnt matter. I am all about experiencing, and I have to try to compete at that level. It is simply part of who I am. Feel sorry for my poor hubby, who has to live with my fearless character, and sometimes help me pick up my broken bones and help me heal then get back on the horse...lol. Always better to have loved and lost, than never loved at all...
Sorry I left so abruptly and weirdly...it is never easy to leave voluntarily. I have been super busy with house guests for the past two months, and working in my rock shop...I literally have a ton of high grade patterned agate along with 200# of all colors of jade and turquoise/crysacola, so I have a lot of work in front of me. Our summer surveys and expeditions were very profitable from a raw rock standpoint. Time to turn it into money. Since I am going to have to fight the insurance company and doctors for my heart surgery, it will continue to take away time from my game. A new larger alliance more focused on performance numbers is where I want/need to be, as part of my research for the viability of a future potential startup gaming company for my youngest son. You must understand that I am acutely aware of how short my time on Earth may be, but my focus is on the success of my children, not on mine. I have already accomplished more than I ever dreamed as a kid...and I am doing well and enjoying life...but I have a lazer focus on the end game for the people I love deeply, because that is my opus, my gift to the world. I have complex ptsd, and significant genetic issues in my blood which offer upsides and downsides...I heal wounds and brokens bones at record speeds for humans, I detox my body faster, and I look ten years younger than other peeps my age. However, my blood clots at a very fast rate...so traumatic injuries are life threatening. I've been living with the effects of the blood clotting problem all my life, in 1996 I had a massive clot develop in my leg over 6 weeks as a result of twisting my ankle while stepping off a curb on campus. My doctor was apparently an idiot, but that is a different long story. The clot ran in the deep vein of my left leg from the femoral artery mid thigh to my foot...I couldnt walk on it at all for 6 months (the shooting pain was electric). You have no idea the trouble I've seen.
Bottom line, long story short, my goals have remained the same, but the alliance changed in a way that no longer fit, and/or I grew into a different player, and needed to move on to grow and learn to meet my personal goals. Perhaps in the end, you will notice how kamal AND I are alike. I learned the most from Kamal, because we think alike in many ways, and he was not afraid to tell me what I was doing wrong and give me clear instruction on what to do different. Kudos kamal!
It has been my honor to serve with you gentlemen. Thank you for your support, many kindessnesses, and understanding. I wish you all the best!!! ?